Monday, June 25, 2007
Juz a Lil update
recently i'm feelin better le... not as emo le larz... but was recently emo some time ago that i even cried in office... haiz... its not like i dun tink anymore but better le larz... =P hmmm, even sometimes tho i dun wanna say much, or i dun say much to you, i do know wat u've been doin larz... thanks to everyone, for loads or little things u've done for me....
esp ll jiejie, and silly pet... who dun say much but will always juz hang ard me till i feel ok... =P thanks ar anzxknk...... it was really e only comforted bits i felt durin dat time... seriously.... =D yea... BITS.... haha... it might have been alot durin my normal crazy moods... but to me at that time... i was hurtin alot and in alot of pain i guessed?!?! i dunch really know how i felt at dat time but i was really irritable.. haz... qin n jiejie shd know coz i kept complainin to them durin those few days... actually words cant really describe e pain inside and every thing seems small compared to the pain and e pain really covers everythg else....
to tell e truth i wasnt really able to accept everythg even tho i knew it'll come sometime juz dunno when... but i din expect it to be dat fast... and i kinda saw him juz on dat exact day at noon and he even responded to me when i called him... sigh... never thought it would be my last look... and his last look at me.... =_____________________="
sometimes i still tink.. will i ever 4get how he looks like... what his voice sounds like? i dun ever wanna 4get abt all these things man.... how he used to dote on me.... and that i was the only one he brought on the little shoppin trips whenever i went... very precious memories to me... that meant alot to me.... on saturday when i dropped by.. i saw his old books that i guess was his school textbooks... really interestin handcopied books and carving printed books... 1 of the books even had a cloth cover.... well.. the words on e cover kinda wore off and looked kinda light but being able to see the things he kept kinda gave me a special feelin... it might sound dumb but i took pics of em on my phone... one of the books had his name on it.. i dunno if he wrote it but e handwriting was nice. =D hmmmm...... nevertheless it was quite interestin to see the kinda books they used to use in school ages ago... mayb sometime i'll post a pic of e 'ancient' books....
1 more thing... i dun even know his birthday coz he doesnt really have a birthday.. ppl born in the WW2 times dun have an exact date for their birthday... they usually put 1st jan 19XX for ppl born then.... sad rite? the only date dat i know of is his death anniversary now... sigh....
schoolin life has started... so has a broke life.... guess i muz watch wat i spend on nowadays? i guess i'll spend lesser on myself but not u.... or u... or u.... esp u.... if u can guess which of the 'u's refers to u lar.... or mayb it might be all e same U... =P
fine i'm crappin already.. but datz how u know i am really better right? thanks to e ppl who stood by me... touched by e lil things that u'all have done... love u all... my pet... my jiejies, mummies n mamas n aunties, buds, frenz... =P thanks. =D
Jie crapped at 11:23 PM
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