[LitmusBlue]

Sunday, May 31, 2009

sigh

to do so much n get spoke to in this kina tone... I felt like an enemy instead... I wonder what i did to deserve that... I feel so Bu zhi? Or shd i say kinda devastated instead of e usual upset? It felt worse. i know im in public but tears just wun stop rollin on their own.

God never did say anyone would really appreciate evrythg u do but thats how imperfect humans are?if not we wudnt need him. I try to be forgiving but at this minute i cant.... Maybe i'll 4get it by noon...

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Friday, May 29, 2009

Unleashed!!!!!

UNLEASHED FINALLY!!!!! i feel soooooo relieved cAN?!?!?!! haha... but right after my exam i needa work for 2 weekends larrrr... =( sad..... wun get to see my churchies for 1 mth.. until they come back from the camp... i am soooo gonna miss my pets.... miss ashley... miss my pal...

sigh~!!!!! oh yea... just now i was talkin to baici " baby!!!!! always say crappy things abt me... den twist stuffs dat i say.... NAUGHTY!!!!!! next time i am so gonna spank U!!!!! =p though not sure whens e nxt time i'll see u also... say wanna add column in her blog say me... den hor.. in e end say i ask her puT... FAINT lAAaaa~!!! my reputation is totally SPOILT lerrrr... heng i dun have her link here... call me heici... den she baici... i wanna faint can? i tink i will definitely spANK u nxt time i see u.. u bettter be prepared... yesh my exam over le so i got more freeeedom... u WATCH OUT for ur butt ok? =x say so much inaccurate stuff abt me... oh my tian~!

arghhhhh.i'm so fed up... the new maid gimme so much probs mANNNNN... sometimes ok sometimes tell her things done halfway deeeee!!!! Half go rubbish bIN!!!! arghhhhhhh.. qi si ren... den my mom keep askin me to tell her this n that.... sooooo dXXX fedup!!!!! qi si wo le....!

make me sooo kdskaslkdjklsajdlkasjkjsad HOT n fedup right now....

guess what? i hate it when ppl say things and they flip it like ROTI PRATAAAA.... its the sorta ppl i guess i detest most right now? but i dunno wat reminded me of this la... i'm not talkin abt my mom in case u're wondering.. i love my mom the MOST... even tho she gets on my nerves the most sometimes as well... =/

anyway nevermind.... i needa coool down... and tink of some pleasant things like i may be able to meet my dpf nxt week... if not the last week of june... and also my OLD pet.... in also the last week of june for the long waited visit to carousel... like long time never go out liao loR... feel so trapped.. with work n other stuffs... its like cant breathe lidat...

i dun know why but something made me think about something today.... caring about someone is not just superficial care as a person may seem ok on the exterior but internally they dont really feel that ok? sometimes talkin in certain ways is just a mean of hiding their true feelings? i felt abit strong in this when i was talkin to somebody today.... anyways, its just a reflection for the day for me that i hope when i care for someone... its not just caring on the surface... but really caring for the person.... emotionally... and empathizing on how they really feel.... that i may be able to help them.... be it just a listening ear or wat.... seemingly i have no problems cheering ppl up as people usually find me when they're stressed and down... and disappear when they're happy??? =/ should i be happy or unhappy about the way things are? should i be happy that i'm only wanted when ppl dun feel good? but i suppose i meant something some way or another to be the person to be "found" but then again... findin someone only when stuffs happen isnt really something thats totally pleasant i suppose...?

my cousin was suppose to come to my house today but in e end due to the O Level chinese paper on monday shes not coming... =( having her ard is sorta nice but she only gets to come once a year during her holidays in december... thats kinda sad... this is like her 2nd home and shes like a lil sis to me lor.... but once a year is still better than nothing... its somethg to look forward to at least..., till e end of the year... =)

oh well, thats all for the night.. its so much random stuff... started out happy.. den went to do some stuff and ended up fedup n grouchy... now i'm just feelin neutral and its back to work tmr... i suppose i needa pray hard in e morning that my day will be a pleasant day and not full of BUGS... from some people....

all it takes is Just a little talk with Jesus... =) i love this....

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Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Weird Dream, BABy.... and Baby G.. =x

Hmmmm.... today i napped in e aftnoon as i was very tired.. and i had a weird dream.. its the weirdest and dumbest dream i ever had... wun say e dumb part but another part of it i was playin bball and the post was extraordinary HIGH... like abt 8 or 10 storeys high.. i tried shootin into it but no matter how i try i cant... well.. its dumb la... so high how to shoot. argh..

anyway gonna study again later aft this... just fed kimberly and changed her diaper.. she always poops aft her meals... lol~! somehow i dun feel that stressed anymore? =x well, subconsciously i am i suppose.. as i got alot of pimples poppin outta my chin... dats a signal.. but den again i dun feel it la.. =/ tho i may be reading alot... den i ever before... which i feel is still not enuf.. coz theres ALOT more?????? =( sigh..... but lookin at her sleep is kinda angelic? hahaHA!!!!! like wat shermin says... when they're asleep.. they're angelic!!! when they're awake.. we're angelic.. haha! coz have to put up with watever they do.... lol!! tiring lor.. really tiringgggggggg!!!

hmmmm... saw some watches lately and saw this Baby G which i tink is quite nice.. hAHA!!! black de nice i tink.. but in reality white de seems nicer as e color combi looks matching.. but i'm sorta infatuated with black n red combis since some time ago... so i feel e black one looks nice... dunno which to get... kinda like gettin watches since like 2 yrs ago... abit before i got the ODM watch....but hardly any i like. =x i am that fussy with my things... =/ anyway i still like ODM watches... just that they're quite fat

sad and embarrassed to say, usually my watches are digital... i find em easier to reach n i take a long time to read analog watches sometimes.. =x or maybe i'm just plain lazy.... oh yea... i am lazy n slow in readin time in 24hr formats as well... =X wakakakkas....

OH OH OH n yEA....!!!! aft my papers i will go to swensens and have ice cream with ashley n polpol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SOOOOOO GOING TO SWENSENS.... hehehe.... i tink ashley will be super happy!!!! so will i... no matter how the paper goes!!!!!

and hor..... after that i can go carousel with my pet also!!!!!!!!!!!

and horrrrr.. after that kimberly will be 1 mth old!!!! my sis's birthday!!!! and MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! so eventful hor.....????

but hor.. aft my exam i got bookfair liao lor... weekends burnt... =/ no goin to church also... =(

sigh... 1 week.. but 2 weekends involved.. =( sad...... but part of nxt week i will be at NIE la.. =)

time to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Thursday, May 21, 2009

姨姨 LOVES Kimberly 钟宇宣

after much waiting and hoping kimberly wun come before my exams, she came right before my exam leaves.... yea... =/ pretty much meant that i dun have much time to study since i needa help out in taking care of her... since shes early by 3 weeks... which she shd have come out when i juz finish my exams or juz before... but.. hAHaHa.... human count cant compare to sky count.. =x translate to chinese bah... i lazy to type in chinese.. =x hahahhaha.. she came out.....

petite lil princess..... really petite.. but shes like observing everythg ard her... watever sounds she hear? =.= doin so much when shes oni a few days old? and shes been doin dat like since e day she came back.... everyday she will be awake for awhile once a day.. and she'll be like looking ard... listenin to wats happenin ard her... staring at us when we feed her this 2 days..... as if she sees us... hahha... =D

its kinda tiring to look after her now... and feed her and change her diapers... as she doesnt like ppl to unwrap her frm e blankie and chg her... lol!!!! and she wakes up quite frequently to drink as she drinks in small amounts.. but i hope she'll grow bigger fast la... so petite now lor..... XD the smallest baby i've seen so far... =.= but girls petite is good la... =)

today went to study at pollys place..... to see my other princess.. hAHa!!! ASHLEY CHIN!!! so funny lor she.... when she woke up... me n polly became her students and she was like reading a story book to us.... well.. shes holding a book and wat she read was totally from her own mind? the stuffs sound simple and logical but she kinda made us count parrots.... and read.. and gave us "sweets" and told us to shake hands and hug each other.... which obviously meant she had some conflicts in sch with her friends before which explains that her teacher probably asked her to shake hands with her friend and hug each other to make up.... me and polly was like laughing at what she was doin lor!!! askin us to shake hands and hug each other?!?!?! well, of coz we never la.... SO SILLY LORRRRR!!!! but ashley was cute today la... and she came my house to look at kimberly meimei finally!!!! tink she loves kimberly meimei as she kept sayangin her head and hair and legs.. hAHaH!!!

gotta study for abit den sleep so i can help look after kimberly tmr.... =)
i hope i can at least pass this one paper i am taking lar.. skippin e other one as really no chance of passing.... but hopefully with God's grace i can pass the one i am taking....

nevertheless.. i am still glad kimberly is out safe and sound...

no matter wat... humans are still more impt than any other material stuff in this world.

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Wednesday, May 06, 2009

MC MC MC

i got smmr mc.... =.= till thurs...

doc says... u cough until lidat..dun tink anybody dare to let u go work....

i also bu yao cough de lor.. i hate coughin. =(

please go away fast!!!!!

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Tuesday, May 05, 2009

I'm Sick of Being Sick

I'm sooooooo SICK of being SICK....~~~~ agrhhhh.. and i hate coughing the most.... arghhh.... everytime kena cough.. always needa cough like lungs also comin out lidat.. i hate this kinda feelin man... hate it hate it hate it.....~!!!!!!!!

arghhhhhhh..... terrible feeling... will be goin to the doctors again tmr... coughin is HATED~~~!

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have been sick the past few days... never even on my computer at all..... today on it coz i needa do stuffs for my work... arghhhh... =/

coughing like dunno wat...... cough till my voice change liaoooooo... i hate this feelin.... like my throat swollen frm all the coughin and it feels sooo uncomfortable.

hai....... tmr should be goin back to work ler.... tons to do.... =(

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