well, quite sudden. Within a year, i lost my paternal grandmother and maternal grandfather. Kinda dunno how to feel rite now. Am currently at void deck at my dabo hse. My dad n godpa burnin e paper. Wanted to sit inside w them but they ask me sit outside w my other uncle. My cousin is sleepin on e rest at e pillars. I'm past my slumber period so i dun feel sleepy anymore. Had blood streaks in my mucus earlier but i'm drinkin more water n mom gave me luohanguo tea so shd be sufficient. Never tell anyone i wasnt feelin well 2day coz i wun be able to get out den. Oh well, i feel ok now anyway. Hope tmr will be ok too. Dunno wat to do now. Bored. Walk ard like dunno how many times.
some days are juz soooooo lousy dat u wished it'd end earlier... =/ yea... datz how it feels... i was kinda lazin ard on bed and when i got up, i got my feet in e dustbin beside my bed... yea... dats also how SUEY i am.. in case u dunno... outta e whole side of the bed... datz like ard a humans height.... i gotta step my feet into a dustin dat has a diameter of barely 30centimetres.... call dat suEY... or siBei ZhUN.... =/ *sUlks* its at times like dis i dunch know howda react man.... to bOchAP... or tO continue being grouchy oR wATeva.....
sIANzz....... my throat's feelin weird... kinda sore...... not pain.. dunno howda describe e feelin... not really e sore typa sore.... but its juz weird lar... kinda have phelgm insideee.. tho i am not coughin.. and really its got nothing to do with cough... =/ sigh.... yawn.. i feel so drained... so tired dat i feel faint.. =ZzzZzzzZzzzZzzz=
kaez... i'm feelin kinda emoooo n grouchy today.... well,,, for e later part of e day larz.... siANz.... arGhhhhhhhZ.... sms xhz n she say she same.... how sian..... =( i walked to e train station instead of takin e feeder bus today coz i thot some air wud be good......... haiz.... but it felt ok for a while but den later its juz e sameeee.. =/
went to popular to buy a palette so dat i can paint my model kits when i feel like paintin or when i dun have e mood to do anythg else...... felt soooo grouchy when i was in e mall and how wud u know when i am grouchy...... u'll see me walkin facin up and not lookin at anyone else... with a stuck up look.... and super black face.... ....
anyway i got home.... logged on to warbook coz gab called me while i was on e way, sayin he got whacked by a guy who whacked me n him earlier dis afternoon... but surprisingly e guy never whack me... 3 other ppl did... dUHduHDuH......~ yea.. dats abt it... well...... i suppose datsz war? big eat small.. small eat bits..... till theres nothg?
another stupid thg is.... i went to bathe.. and i turn e knob... wat came out was COLDDDDDDDDDd water.... damn it... i checked e switch on e heater... it was OFF... so i thot HENG AR... arbo siao liAO... i switched e heater on..... and it was still COLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD..... yea... double damn.... i din on the power switch datz outside............
Fed up................... was like hoppin ard n shivering under the cold shower... arghhhhz.... if u know me well enuf... i'm not really into cold water baths unless i have migraine or major headaches den i will take cold showers to try numb myself abit..... arghhhhhhhhhhhhz....
dis is really not a good day for me.... and i know e nxt fews are not also.. dun ask me why i know coz i know.... i know watz comin up..... hate it.... =/ warbook doesnt provide me a venthole...... its war but casualties are juz numeric...... and u dun really see tiny ppl squeallin and dyin in tiny pools of blood... i'm not a murderous person but at times when u feel like punchin some sorta sand bag or wateva..... war games kinda makes u feel better?
sigh... mayb i shd play battlecry awhile later.......... kill monsters..... zombies and watevazzz
eh... it wasnt a really pleasant day today.... well... for the things i dun say... it doesnt mean i dun know a heck..... i juz dun feel e need to say out everythg i know.... when i wanna do somethg... i will... when i dun, no point askin.. i wun.... if i dun wanna say somethg... i wun.... datz me... no point askin me lotsa times coz i wun. askin once is ok at a time.... if i said no den no point probing coz i will never say. i have a tight mouth.
havin headache today.... tink coz never sleep enuf last 2 days... xhz asked me to call her earlier and shes havin a headache n a lousy day as well... *sigh* seems like she also quite suey de... =___=" helpin her play her fluffpet awhile... n clear sm of her notifications later mayb... while waitin for her to be online since i asked her to bathe as she reach hm ler... so poor thg.. work till so late... tues got test smmr... tmr nite got tuition smmr... =( sigh...
tmr is mondays.. i have severe monday blues... she has tuesday blacks.. =_=" i hate mondayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys..... sigh....~ juz now my sis say i like emoooo songs... errr... kinda... well, i feel theres always songs for different moods... so i choose wat to listen dependin on how i feel... datz why i need a 8GB mp3 player... geddit? bleah... well, emo songs can be a way of venting out my fustrations at times... or juz listen for fun lar... bleah. anyway i listen to all kinda songs also la.... new age, instrumentals, oldies from e 80s... cheesy love songs... old pop songs... rock ballads... wateva lar.... dun ask me abt new songs coz i wun know... not all new things appeal..... i like wateva sounds nice to me... new or old... if i like everythg new.... den i tink i shd chg frens often too.... but i'm not e type... so dun worry... old frens still count unless there's somethg special abt u....
mom gave me sm fresh fruit juice earlier and it made me felt better awhile.. but e heavy head is kinda comin back.... well, shes here so gonna get back to talkin.. and get myself in bed as well in a while mayb....
till then.. vent hole... kinda realised its been a few years. =/
in serious need of motivation to study...... no time liaooooooooooooooooooooo........ dyin liaooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...................................... wakakakas.... drivin myself insane yet i find myself so deprived of entertainment and there is no balance within meeeeeeeeeeeeee..... reason for being so un-motivated? bleAH~~~~!!!
oh well.... tryin to study tgt with my xhz and encourage 1 another while checkin on wat we're doin... seems like shes more guai den me.... hahahahaa... dui bu qiiiiiiii... *smacks myself* =x sigh.........
oh well, today cousin they all came my hse at noon time.... so long no see them le.. they were happy to see me especially teresa... =) well... i am her favourite marz.... and annemarie only follows her.. so whenever i carry one... i need carry annemarie also.... den i got 2~~~ veronica's growin liao and my mom was sayin like.... nxt time i would needa carry 3~!!! coz carry 1st one... 2nd one wans also... den 3rd de will wan next time also.... dUH Duh Duh.... dun ask me why kids like me so much... i dunch know also.... *shrugs*
oh well... today i went tq and mummy kinda asked if i did anythg to my hair... nope... not ever since new year.. and new year i oni cut loz.... =_=" they say today look nicer.... and i was like hUH..... today i kena rain.... den went bus... never even comb... juz pull pull pull.... =_=" hmmmm... so i asked pet got diff meh.. she say longer n more stylo... =__________=" and felicia said it was long n covered my eyes.. hAHAHAA..... so no see eyes better lar??? i tot i wud look like paul twohill den... if u remember e prev season of singapore idol =p i still rem how he always swing his hair aside.. =p
oh well... enuf rubbish liaoz.......... back to biting books liaoz....... xhz is complainin i am naughtyyyyyyy.. and she has finished one of her reports........!!!!!!! arghhhhHH.... i am sooooooo crappy...... muz bite bite bite book now..... ya know, if burning and drinkin e ashes of e books can let me know everything, i wud do it man... but it doesnt... so datz also crap lar... =p
well, its gonna be good friday in ard 40 minutes time.... really glad i could have a long weekend dis week manz. oh... before i 4got to mention, someone actually painted me an easter egg and mmsed me a photo of it.... yea..... =D lol..... yea.. when i said she was suppose to gimme one last year and we couldnt meet.... so today... her msn subnick was... "where's my easter egg?" so i popped the same question back at her right after a HI...
yo... haha... datz abt it.... so dis evenin i met up with ash, pol n will fer dinner and on my way back i got e mms.... i muz say i am VERY SURPRISED.... someone would actually go into e trouble to PAINT an egg for me... with a smily face.... yea.. surprised.... hurhurhur....
talkin abt ash..... she was SUPER CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! holdin both index fingers up beside her head and lookin like a lil bunny!!!... we ate at e foodcourt n she wanted to try all of our food so we ended tellin her everything is SPICY~!!!! and made e blowing action with our hands wavin... pretendin our food is actually spicy..... =p
we went to e library n ended playin "catch" behind e shelves.. =p with her short legs she cant keep up with my speed so naturally i stood behind e shelf and she came by, yellin 'I CATCH U" with e not so accurate prounounciation larz... hahaa.. but it sound cute n u could make out dat was wat she's tryin to say lar..... =D super cute....
kaeZ.... dunno WTH i'm so tired recently.... not sure if i'm gettin used to sleepin early recently coz i never tok to xhz late recently.. or i'm juz plain tired.... *shrUGs* aint sure abt it... but anyway... kinda tok to joanne today, my 'dear' in poly.... crap mate... gossip mate.... well, shes gonna go to aussie to work in may.. and currently doin some modellin work...... gab's dad kinda needed a model for photoshoots with their products so kinda ask joanne to do it... =p... suppose it'll end up gorgeous since kinda saw some pics off joanne's FB account... n heard she was in some woman mags earlier... neway told her we'll arrange for some dinner some time before she leaves for aussie... along with my other mates and she was surprised i was still in contact with michael aft so long.. *HIaKs* it doesnt really take much meetings for true frens to stay together... true u have to maintain it.. but i mean... u'll just stick together when u know dat e person is a loyal fren.
well.. abit sleepy... but guess i'll do other things... nothg much to do online since i'm broke in FFS and all my "pets" in reality are still in my possession. mayb read abit of my text... and chobo abit.... at least i get to sleep in abit tmr.....
p.s. editted e link..... dun wanna call u emoooo anymore coz i tot it wudnt be nice to u since i know initially u dun really like being called dat... i shant be mean to u... =) will tink of smthg to put.... but u can still call me emooooo as much as u like coz i'm fine with it... lil names dun bother me at all. =) (to u know who)
oh well.... been lookin at dis vid at youtube some time ago and it cracks me up everytime i see it.... "U"RE NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH ISSUEEEEEEEEEEEEES" hAHAHA...... oh well.. =_=" funny to see but looks kinda creepy to own.. hEHE....
neway juz have a look to crack urself up bahhhl.... it still does even tho i've watched it for like sOoOO many times.. hAHAz....
kinDa took lotsa photos since new year till now.... of people.... of things.... of frens....... of foood..... everything in life..... and i tink i really love takin pictures...... haha...... =p not of much of pics of myself tho.. haa... have abit larz.... heh.....
oh well.... lets juz talk abt wat i did recently.... k... i had a crab feast, courtesy of my 2 lovable churchies...... xueyen n manxing..... =D thanks gers... i really enjoy myself..... june will be our nxt round and i muz say.. its not the crab dat makes me anticipate everything and i know its e same for the both of u coz we really enjoyed chattin..... crapping... and our photo takin sessions dat manxing would be quite unwilling to take part coz.... "I, the great~" would also request for crappy pics to be taken.... *hiAKS* eVIL..... hAHHAHAHAHAHha... oh well.... but xueyen really plays along man... hAHAHHAHA... BUT XUEYENN~~~~!!!!! CAN U DUN LAUGH IN EVERY PIC?!?!?!???! XI NU AI LE~!!! ALL 4 U EITHER LAUGHIN OR SMILING~!!!!! aiyooooo... lOUSY lei xueyen......~ *faINT* lORz....
neway un jUNE.. e session will be courtesy of xueyen, who will be treatin e 2 of us... since manxing's birthday is on 15th while mine is on 16th.... yea man..... and july we'll be treatin xueyen but she rejected coz she said her teeth wud not have recovered den.... =_=" we're all biters..... we bite e shell when it wun budge.... haha.. but xueyen.. they have e pliers to crack e shell if u no energy lor.... hAHHAa... SILLY....
ahh.... its 11 pm ler.. kinda left dis window while talkin to ppl online... on mobile.. on phone... wateva.... and its time to get to studyinnnnnnn..... wanted to post pics but ended up talkin........ *FAINtZ* dUH.... but i'm glad i got to talk to xhz...emooo.... lx....and mx lar.... haha... crazy ppl.. =/ oni emoo most normal... hAHAHHAA..... too siwen liaoz. =D lol but i like. hAHAHAHA.... =p =p =p oh well.. there is a time for everythg.... and the time is to study now... =/
god blesses us with things that we may in turn bless others......... i've got my treats from ppl...... have treat others as well.... some sorta cycle thgy..... end of dis mth treatin someone a birthday treat....
thanks for the people who've always given me things, be it big or small... it matters to me.. even tho i may not show e appreciation on my face... haha... thanks arh... =)
