i juz got scolded by someone who added my fren, and pretended to know him and asked me lotsa personal questions abt my fren... i was doubtful and so i questioned her on how she know him..... she avoided my questions and kept askin me thgs abt him stilll... so i got fed up... and ask if she added him from my fren list.... and she avoid smmr lor.. until i ask another time den she said yes... dUH... so i asked her not to anyhow add my frens again... coz i dunno her well lor... mayb i am protective of my frens but then i dunno her well lo... this happened some time ago... and she got unhappy n call me "DUN ANYHOW ADD MY FREN" almost every time she see me on msn.. =_____________=" please lo... hahaa.. fact is she anyhow add my fren and i wasnt sure of her character so of coz i will be more defensive of ppl i really know mar...
and for the dunno how many time, she called me.. 'dun anyhow add my fren" tho apparently i said it with a please.. and even say mayb i never phrased myself well... on dat day.. but she got bitter i suppose? and today she hurled vulgarity at me?!?!?!?! Oh my TIan lor... ROFL... i dunno wan laugh or wan angry lor... always ask me no dare to reply? i was like thinkin do i need to? to someone who insulted me... said disappointed in me as a christian? apparently i tried to end things nicely in dat incident when she was the one who kept goin on n on... and now.. she's challengin me to reply? ho ho ho~ =/ shes like a pest? =____=" and like soooo childish.... older den me smmr... my TIaN AHHHHHH.......... why are there ppl like dat ard sia?
it seems like my EQ is gettin better liao.. =x hahahahaha.... hmmm.... bo dai bo ji kena scold the F word... no matter what i also never say such thgs to her lor...... =/ =/ =/ i am not bushuang in anyway lar... she said she disappointed in me as a christian... i'm not tryin to be judgemental but i doubt her intentions man.... =/ addin guys into her facebook wateva... =/
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playin battle of the bands now... my dearest Bdd intro de... not bad.... hahaa.. somethg like warbook.. but i guess i'll get bored of it soon also lar... =p and BDD... take care.. dun sooooo sian lARrrrrrrrrr.... jiayou jiayou.... soon it will be over de...... =D =D =D sad i cant go listen tho i wished to..... but there'll be chances i suppose? heh.....
well, i shd be studyin now... yes i know... ya i know... i've been doin dat e whole day... but i am really at lost on what i shd study as my lecture notes are neatly filed but they're a complete mess and i dun even know which topics of my guide they refer to since the lecturer din write up e notes accordin to our UK guide and the guide is a complete rojak of different random topics.. pieced up together with HANDWRITTEN PAGE NUMBERS...... dats how bad it is.... GOD SAVE MEEEEEEEEE.... =( i wanna study.... but but but but..... i dunno how to go abt doin it coz everythg is toooooo rojak n randommmmm... i cant even spot out topics.... i manage to spot 1 lar.... but it might or might not come out looooo.... =(
oh well.. was doin my quiet time and it was about God's Words..... and it kinda reminded me of this song.....
and it reminded me of another song.. =/ one of my other favourites....
There is none like You (by Lenny LeBlanc) There is none like You No one else can touch my heart like You do I could search for all eternity long and find There is none like You Your mercy flows like a river wide And healing comes form you hands Suffering children are safe in Your arms There is none like You There is none like You No one else can touch my heart like You do I could search for all eternity long and find There is none like You
someone juz told me earlier abt goin to sichuan.. =/ tho it has not been confirmed, i'll help pray as you have asked... even tho i may not bear lettin you go... but as you have said.. u feel alil burden when u saw e email askin for ppl to go as teachers to help the children there.... i'll do so.... juz as u'll help me when i ask.... even if its juz temporary.. its still quite risky coz there's still risk of another earthquake. =( oh well.... to learn to appreciate thgs n ppl better... to go to such extend, i'm not someone who can comment rite now..coz i dun have love dat great rite not.. even tho i may feel upset at e sight of the thgs being shown on tv and on the kids..... but i respect ur decision...
wat irony am i talkin abt? i'm talkin abt myself..... part of me wishes for the exams to be finish n done with... yet part of me is afraid for it to reach as i'm not totally prepared for it... i'm 1/4 done for PBF... and 0% for FM.. FM is not a new subject but somehow it seems totally different from e one i took in poly... =( poly is more theoractical.... and dis one is not nice... alot of calculations... alot of cashflow thgy... needa prepare cash flows thingys.... =( =(
i'm not sure if i made e right choice takin a UOL degree... coz its all so mathematical with all e calculus... blah blah blah... and e econs are likE SOOOOO different from e one i took in poly.. so many weird formulas all over e notes.. and i needa write essays for my exams... and quote the formulas and draw diagrams as tho i am writing a text book... yeahh.. dats what i am suppose to do if i wan to do well.. and its like OH mY tiANNNNNN.... i was never good in memorising things and all along i have depended on understanding things....... instead of memorising... how am i gonna remember all these thingysssssss......
God grant me a mind dat i can tink clearly with... remember and retain everything that i read man...... i am a SOTONG in rememberin things.... coz i always 4get to do things at work.. or wateva.... coz theres toooooo many things to dooooooo... =( i am very tired but dis few weeks i dun feel the tiredness entirely except durin when i needa wake up in e morning... =( its a drag to wake.... but i got no choice la.... sian.... byebye.. gotta go read smmr for my PBF liaoz.. gonna touch on FM soon...
there was somethg dat popped on my mind awhile ago i wanted to put down... but then... my sister talk to me.. and i 4got wat i wanted to say... =____________=" okaez..... datz how 4getful i can be..... =/ =/ trust me... i dun wanna be dis way... but its good in a way... when it comes to unhappy things.... or when ppl make me unhappy. =p sometimes things can be good n bad at e same time.. its juz how u perceived it... nuf abt e self consolation. =p lol... back to muggin..... =(
sometimes i dun really understand myself.... its not like i'm not nervous nor i am not stressed abt my exams... but i did read but i am not makin progress and its like... the fire hasnt reach my butt datz why i am not makin much progress tho i read... but i read like SLOW SLOW SLOW... so darn slow... dUH.... sigh
sometimes i wish i were more reactive to things... bueh~ =___=" if only i were dis slow in anger den in stress.... hAHAHAHAHA. =/ sigh... was talkin to BDD earlier on dis anyway.... XHZ's out with her fren to celebrate e fren bday.. so tmr den talk to her...
my throat's feelin kinda infected... been drinkin e luo han guo my mom boiled on monday when i was on mc.... boiled half day de... coz i coughed badly on monday morning... but yday n today ok lar.. tho i did cough abit dis mornin.. but it went away... yday never drink... tho my mom did bugged me to drink. juz now my dad bugged me to drink.. =_=" tired man... my back aches for dunno wat reason. dUH... anyway bones has been achin since last week lar.. stupid flu caused or wateva lar...
arghh... stupid nose... itchy and makin me sneeze again n again.. dumb nose... duh... argh... one side is blocked as usual and e other side is leaking.... ARGHHHHHHHHhh.... dumb duMB dUMB nose.... fed up.... crao.... been sneezin alot at nite and in the morning recently... stupid nose....
halskdh awj;lirej jslaskaks/dj.adsh jdakska;k.a.... juz flaring at my nose.. dumb i know. =/ but i juz wanna vent my frustration...
u know... sometimes i always blabber about existence... presence of a fren to juz hang ard with me when i'm feelin down..... dat wat i dun really need is to talk... in fact i hate talkin when i'm feelin down.. i hate discussing... which in fact i might say watz happenin when i feel better.... and sometimes i juz feel grouchy due to a mass of lil things dat dampen my mood.... oh well.. but anyway i know i've always got a pet dat willl accompany me for latenight show and not probe abt things unless i say...., even tho she might not be feelin totally well and ish super tired....... thanks arhhh.... u've done it twice for me and i'll always remember.... 疼你不是白疼的... hahhaa.... once it even rained after we came outta e movie theatre...
well... sometimes.. when u dun feel like sayin anything... a friend's presence and existence actually counts alot..... its a kinda of mental support in case u dunch know or am not the type dat reacts this way.... i've actually told ppl before on things like dis.. dat its not always talkin dat makes someone feel better be it thru little unhappy things dat happen or be it serious things... but there are always ppl who dun understand... and think... wat can you really do without talkin it out... talkin abt things may be good but it may not always be the best to do so... at a certain time.... not sure if u get wat i mean... but some times... to talk or not to talk.. depends on when it is.. and the ppl involved as well... anyway.... last week i read abt somethg from ODB online... and it sorta describe dis kinda comfort dat a fren provides.... even without speaking... =)
click on top to read if u haven read it or am using another devotional... i randomly use odb or devotionals from crosswalk... so i dun actually follow odb always... or sometimes i juz look thru both... if i have e time..
"In our shattered times, anguish relents Not at mere idle words spoken in vain, But rather from the silent eloquence Bestowed by those rare souls who share our pain. " —Evans
this quote kinda sounded very beautiful.... , well, to me lar....often u may tink u do not know wat to do... to comfort another person who's been hurt or upset greatly.... but you might not know... sometimes juz being there, with the person... actually soothes the person's hurtin soul greatly that the person actually feels better.... u might not know wat the person's been through, be it big or small, be it arguements or wateva, but juz sittin down n offering your time... juz to be with the person.... may actually make e person feel better lar.... not exactly sure howda express totally with words... but dis is probably somethg u gotta feel for urself....
kinda have alot of thots on my mind lately.. but anyway.. it juz goes to show my mind aint dead yet.. and my brain cells are still workin coz i tink. =P k.. being lame agains.... hahaha... sometimes i do tink.. but i juz dun bother to voice em all out.. and sometimes i'm juz plain lazy to tink abt things... =p =p =p
what i wanna say is...... i hate havin classes on sundayyyyssss.... i hate havin a cranky nose..... i've sneezed 3 times while typin juz e stupid title and dis 2 sentence.... darn..... haven been able to sleep well...
i dun feel goooooood. =/ =/ =/ sian.... i've never had to study for exams before.. it really is sIAN now dat i gotta work n study coz i dun feel at ease without studyin.... even in poly i wud juz study the nite before... and i dun really study much also coz i start late nite.. and sleep whenever i feel like sleepin. =x and i am a stubborn freak to insist on readin from front to back.. so usually i only read on e basic parts in front... dun ask me how i am able to swim thru every thg... i failed once in and it felt like hell man... but i deserved it la...
to a person who has severe monday blues... school on sundays sucks..... i cant see everyone i am so tired... i dun get any rest?!?!?! since i work on saturdays... =/ after my papers i will have world book fair and i have to be at e fair this year..... =/ dat means workin on sundays as well lar.... sigh. 2 weekends gone...
oh... oh... oh... i 4got wat i wanted to say.. oh yea... dunno wat the lecturer gonna talk abt tmr... seems like hes gonna go thru some past year papers... not sure if we'll be sittin thru e whole day coz if it sounds alien and pointless... we might not stay on.... coz we wun understand anythg either....
it all depends also...... if i dun understand wat he sayin i wun stay... usually i'll juz figure out things myself..... as always... and i remember better dat way.. even tho askin may be e easiest way out.. but its not e easiest to remember and understand.... rather den askin n memorisin.. i still prefer figuring things out myself... call me dumb... but i am lidat..... it may take some time but i remember better.. i am not a memorise it all person.... i dun memorise....
time to study..... i have like 19 days to chuck in almost everythg.... as much as i can.
its time to get serious liao.... not much time liao also. =x well... i took ard 2 hours to get my notes sorted properly... so i shall begin to seriously study instead of juz readin n readin n readin.. have cleared e table as well....
yday.. bumped into my couz on e way to work.. she was workin at causeway pt last week lo.. no tell me arbo i wud have gone chat with her abit while i was there... =/ dis weekend she will be at compass point liao lor... =/ but anyway its still near lar.. can still go find her crap la... she was at orchard lo... kena transferred there.. lol.... she say there harda meet target... hehe.. which is true larrrrr.... neighborhood area... kekeke....
oh by e way... i went to see my bags.. wanted to meet peiling n her mom... since i dunno she called me or i call her.. i also 4got.... den she say her mom ask me wan go mustaxx and chinatown anot.... den i say i dun wan go chinatown... or mustaxx.. i say i not interested in both place and cant stand smell in mustaxx haha...=x no comments.... unless is orchard den i might consider... since can go see bag.....den awhile later she call me.. say they goin orchard... lol... haha... change mind fast fast hor? in e end i also never meet her lar... she walk from orchard dat side.. to centre point dat side.. but i walk from centrepoint dat side... to wheelock dat side... LiHAI hor? hahaaaa..... walk opp direction...
i went robinson centrepoint to check out the material of the timbuk2 bags... i am ok with e colours.... and internal pockets.... in fact i quite like e fact it got quite a few pockets but i dun like e internal liningggggg... =/ and its too thin... tho it very water resist... coz if its thin, and i dun put alot thgs in it.... it will be outta shape when i carry~!!!! =/ so i headed to garage... and almost wanted to buy the hoax... but tot i'll check out e actual crumpler stores in paragon and wheelock... since felicia say muz go borderssssssssss..... she like say dunno how many times borderrrrrrrrrrsssss... hahaa..... so i went paragon and check wat la... shun pian ask when shipment comin.... say 4 to 6 week no promise,.. dunno how long also... sian lo.... datz wat i hate... dunnoo how long... wait also dunno wan wait how long... like unknown lidat...
den i went borders.... on e way there.... i was talkin on e phone with BDD... den hor... somebody gave me some flyers... when i hung up at wheelock.. den i lifted it up and read... its a flyer to cut hair........ and right on top... i see the words.... FILIPINOS SPECIALLLLL.... faint larrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..... i look like one? plus i dun tink i look like i need a cut... cut liao botak liao lor.... anyway.... no comments... =___=" she was givin to alot ppl.. men n women.. nobody bothered to take.. so i take since i walk pass.... duhhh...
after dat i called mummy n talk to her abt e bag.... den i told her abt dis... she laugh until like dunno wat lORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr... wah liEwzzzz but i myself laugh like hell also larrrrrrrrrrrrrr...... den i video call her to show e colors of the bag to her.. since oni got 3 colors for e size i wan.. available then... green... oatmeal brown.. which is more to beige kinda color.. and black.... i like e brown one of coz larrr... and black... but guess wat she said???? "er... well u know.. like dat day i tell u i say xingde...., u're dark u know.... and u take black and brownnnnn,, like nothing liao lor...." i geddit......... black n brown... =___=" plus the flyer.... hahahaa.... i like brown larrrr.... i like SAI colors.. hahhaa... earth colors.... khaki olive green i also like lar.....
anyway i got the dreadful embarrassment bag lar... the model is called dreadful embarrassment... it has a 17" laptop sleeve... and alot pockets.. which is why i like it la... i cud have gotten a smaller one.. which i 4got the name,.dunno considerable embarrassment or wat la... juz rite for my 14" lappie but i wan a bigger bag.. and e smaller one is 14 liter capacity while dreadful is 20... and the hoax is less than dat... and it costs the SAME... .. yea... same price... so i thot i'll get e green bigger one with lotsa pOCkets.... i love lotsa internal pockets.. dun ask me why.. i juz love.... put keys... put wallet.. put mp3 player... put wateva la... i juz like separatin em.. instead of all chuckin into 1 big hole... =( i dun like havin to toss n turn inside e bag to look for somethg.... and e color is like same as felicia's bag la... dunno exactly same or abit darker... tink abit darker? i dunno also lar... =/ but i told her i got green one lar...
sunday got class again.... i hate classes on sunday.. it makes me emoooo.. hahaaaaaa..... =( err...... haiz.. but it saves me takin leaves lo...... i am considerin to take more leaves to study for exam... but dunno whether allowed anot.... sigh........ sianz lar........ i still haven find a day to meet joanne......!!!! they are waitin for me and she cant wait till end mayyyyy!!! she mid may maybe go aussie for good liaooooooooooooooooooooooooozzzzz......
