Monday, September 08, 2008
hAIz
SIANNNNNNNN n SIANNNNNN n juz more SIANNNNNNNNzzzzz....... today went to school for nothing... haiiiiiiiiiiz.... wanted to pay my school fees but had some problem.. so gonna pay tmr mayb.... sigh.... being in school again makes me feel kinda SIANNNNNN.... schools startin nxt wednesday.... feelin very emoooo abt it.... dunno... feelin kinda siannn... haven start already startin to feel tired... juz when i tot i cud rest enuf to store enuf sleep.... i fell sick 2 week before sch starts... and cough.. and cant sleep well... endin up.... feelin drained due to everything..... datz crap aint it? all the sleeping early and such... before all these... has turned to nought..... yea... sometimes life can juz be this crappy...
wat to say and wat to do? theres nothing much to be done alsoz... talked to SL last week and kinda realised somethg abt her nick... it was MY "classic" quote when i was in poly... why care who cares nobody cares.... live like hell and die like a saint... saints usually live a life like hell... datz so terribleee.. den they die off being remembered as a saint... yea... datz about it? dat was my email signature for almost the whole of my poly days... shes feelin kinda crappy also lately larz... gonna meet up for her bday but both of us aint free... until mayb e last weekend of sept... sigh...
the antibodies are fightin fightin fightin... seems like they were winning.. den they kinda slacked abit and e virus wins abit.. makin the body feel drAINEEEEEDDDD...
well crap. crap. crap. crap. and crap.. its rainin heavily now.. i cant open my windows coz e rain came in... =/ stuffy room? how am i gonna slp later??? i cant on the aircon alsoz.. darn... haiiiiiiiiiizz... rainy days are suppose to be nice to sleep in... today's not my day.... everything sorta went wrong... or should i say.. everything usually goes wrong for me....... =/ =/ =/ sigh.. nothing ever happens right.... true it may seem that things happen coz there a lessons to be learnt.... but then again... it killsss sometimes... in the process.. dUh... wat am i talkin abt? sigh...
theres ppl persuadin me to take RM1T instead of uO1.. coz its easier... am i gonna give up without even puttin up a fight? not now... not now i suppose... its not even a proper fight.. much as i am being persuaded... i dun wish to stop now... even tho i'm not sure if i have enuf self-discipline.. and there are ppl ard me askin me to take uniS1m which he says is even easier to pass.... coz his fren ish inside.. and passin is a breezeeeeeeeee.... arghh... do u know its very unmotivating to hear all sorts of commments... comin out from ppl beside u.. ppl takin e same stuff... ppl who are not even taking... concerned it may seemed... but very very very not encouragin yea? very very very very very very very very NOT encouragin... is dat it? is dat wat u're suppose to do? tear down? build up? *shrugs* sometimes i dun understand u.... u seem soooooooo .....
not talkin abt 1 person in e above paragraph.. its a few few few few few.. yea.. a few... i am tired.. i am bushuang.. i am upset.. i am unhappy abt things.... today.. yday... last week... watevaz.... at myself?
Jie crapped at 9:59 PM
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