Sunday, February 03, 2008
Random Thoughts
it's been so long since e last stephen chow show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait to watch CJ7 on wednesday..... and with my silly xhz~!!!!!! oh well... tickets were sellin quite fast i tinkz... when i booked e tickets on thursday or friday nite when e schedule for nxt week juz came out, the slot dat i booked was already half full!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heheheheheheheh..... simply love stephen chow shows.... been watchin it since i was young...... the old shows still make me laugh man... stupid shows......
oh well.... i was suppose to study today but due to some reasons i din.... partly i wanted to go support JJ abit... tot of goin rite after service but she kinda ZOOOOOOM... off...... so wanted to go home study rite away since i dun feel like goin alone.... den pet said she wanna go... so in e end waited.....until 2 den we left centre.... and it was like wanna read... and do tutorials also not enuf time.... so i gave up..... and decided to not do anything..... =/ kena scolded by pet... say i perfectionist.... wan do thg muz do nicenice arbo dun do... which is true... and say i stubborn....! yea.... rite... i am wat i am. lol.... theres pros n cons abt everything.... being lidat has its good n bad points but i still like it dis way.
well... i kinda regret goin abit.. coz i really needa concentrate on e thgs i hafta do rite now since i dun really have much time.. but i do cherish e times dat i spend with my frens as u dun really have much to hang ard actually, when u have alot on hand... which makes u feel kinda miserable... and u miss some of them abit..... when all u see are the people u dun really wish to see......
neway.... i'm happy dis week not becoz its new year coz new year dun mean a thing to me... but becoz i get to see xhz, SL and my lil cousins....!!! i hope dat i can go my uncle hse on thursday... dis year will be very different coz ahgong is no longer ard.... last sunday i was walkin ard causeway pt with e mogujie and we were lookin at some candies and i kinda pondered if we'll still go to my uncle's place since ahgong isnt ard anymore.... ='( since my mom is bigger and e older dun usually visit e younger ppl 1st... ='( and its so different when ahgong is no longer ard... when i told her.. i felt like cryin man... but of coz i din lar.... =/ but i guess i sounded i wanna cry ler.....
i still tink of him now n den... but new year kinda makes it all worse as last yr he was still ard... and a lil before my birthday last year he passed away... sooooooo fast dat i was hardly prepared.... and i practically broke down in fronta my mom when we were informed he passed on.... and i insisted on goin to e hospice to see him dat nite when my dad wudnt let me... dat in e end my mom had to be e one who consoled me instead of e other way round..... i din know why i reacted dis way but everythg juz gave way....... i cudnt take it.... someone who held my hands and brought me to e market to buy me candies..... e coffee shop..... gacha me toys... whenever i went to visit him in e weekends.... suddenly he was gone.... i was depressed, anguished.... bitter... every thing felt unpleasing..... i had zero tolerance... except to my lil cousins.
dis year's new year he isnt ard anymore.. i suppose everythg feels different and we'll miss him even more!?!?!? sigh~ i wish i'll never 4get how he looks.... i'm bad at remembering faces unless i see them often.... if one day i dun remember how he looks anymore... i suppose i'll resent myself for 4getting coz he's someone i never wanna 4get....................
Jie crapped at 10:28 PM
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