Wednesday, April 29, 2009
My G.i.G 2
My God is GOOD~!!!!!!!!!! was feelin darn emo on monday... i almost broke down at work but since i'm facing a glass panel and the others in the room can oni see my back, they cudnt tell... and i din really tell anyone except for HMM whom of coz i knew i can trust for good advices? i was so emo larrrrr!!!!! was originally very emo due to work as i am given a dumb deadline for loads of stuff to complete juz becoz i am goin on exam leave... and certain things dat do not have to be finished dat fast she wans it dONE!!!!! arGHHHHH... dat includes loading hundreds and thousands of stuff into the online shop... images..... prices!!! calculating the prices... and filtering those we sell!!!! ARGHHHHHHH~!!! CAN U BELIEVE THAT? besides doin those.... theres some books we sold to school libraries to be processed!!! i nEeda DO THOSE as well!!!!!!!!!!! AARGHHHHH......!!!!! all before i go on exam leave... and it means stayin back to do... or goin home to do... or cancellin some of my leAVE as WELL.... well, she expects me to be able to study a whole year of stuff in 3 days before my exam... being 2 days the exam days.. 5 days of leave before world book fair.... how is dat? =/
and after dat my fren told me some stuff dat made me felt worse.... askin to hope that i understand.... but i cant!!!!!! i dun understand the reason giving up so easily.... i really dont... giving up without even putting a fight? through we might fail... but then again... it'll make u stronger isnt it? as in... the nxt time u'll be more alert.. aware and careful? haiiiz.... so all these.... i almost broke down.... with all these crap.... considering even later... i realised i was goin to fr class ALONE... with the Mr Pointer pointing ard? but he didnt point on monday.. he was rather nice but i never manage to copy all the stuffs as fast as i cud...but i suppose i can try work thgs out and email him for answers if i really cant get.
anyway thanks to HMM who gave me a verse on monday before class which really made me felt better and talking to her kinda makes me feel better? slightly comforted....
Philippians 4:12-13 NIV12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.
13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.i can do EVERYTHING through him who gives me strength..... all along whenever i meet deadlines at work which i tink i cant catch up... i've asked for help from HIM who is able in all.... to give me strength and refresh me...... why do i let myself become so overwhelmed this time? due to work n exams comin together at the same time... well.. this really reminded me to cast my burdens unto HIM and not be troubled by all for if i have no trust.. there is nothing i can accomplish with my own strength.. needless to say, being EMO certainly doesnt give me any strength and i felt sickly during the last few days since saturday... after i spoke to my boss on the leave thingies...
today, well, was tryin to find a verse on a certain thgy while on the way to vivo... on my phone on bible gateway.... i went in and found something which really HIT ME in the FACE... yeah... HIT ME IN THE FACE!!!! the way God speaks is just so amazing... usually i refer it as SCARYYY... but its not scARY.. its juz so AMAZING that i find it scary... HE KNOWS WHAT WE'RE THINKING and how we're really...... true and real enough dat when u see the words... it just kinda HITS you in the mind.... thats how the IMPACT feels..... so this is the verse i saw instead... and it came out juz in 1 verse in NLT... tho i was searching for like something totally different...
Proverbs 17:22 NLT22 A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a broken spirit saps a person’s strength.
A cheerful heart is good medicine but a broken spirit saps a persons strength.... How true this is... that when our spirits are down we cant find strength within us to do anything, how our bodies fail on us when no joy is found within our hearts... how that no matter what we do we juz cant find the energy to get ourselves back UP.... and we juz go on feelin EMOOOOOOO!!!! i felt HIT in the face.... well.. not a bad thg... its like tellin me i shd not be EMO liao.... well actually today i felt ok liao lar... but the fact of seeing this juz felt SOMETHING lor... dunno howda describe wat kinda feelin this is.. but it was a good feeling. =) like He's speakin to me that he knows how i feel and is telling me not to be emo for it will sap all the strength i have... that i shd be cheerful... =D which of coz i am now!!!! hahahahhahaha! it feels good......!!! =)
Dear heavenly father... u have brought me through times and things i didnt thought i could accomplish.... and you have shown me that it is You who controls all things.... that all we had was to ask... and seek for you lord to help us in all things that we face... that we have faith in you lord... that you are able to bring us through all that we face, that you know how we feel, that we're never alone... i may fail in certain things but in these you have shown me things i could have done to improve myself... that all these were to mould me into a better person... in your grace and mercy that i am able to have chances to do so.... that you have blessed me with wonderful friends around me who reminds me of your existence and power.. that you spoke to me in times of my needs.... that you blessed my days when i spoke to you in the mornings, of my worries..... may i continue to look upon you on all things and THANK you lord....
in jesus name i pray... AMEN....
Jie crapped at 11:47 PM
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