Monday, February 02, 2009
Depressing Day
haii.... din really wanna start off my week feelin this way but i cant help feelin this way... tho i know this isnt the way i should be acting... woke up really NOT RIGHT... all the way... with my nose severely congested... and my eyes puffy... haiii...
then saw missed call on my phone frm lastnite... cant tahan them... but i cant really throw the 10 years into the garbage bin just like that as well, even though i am seriously getting fed up sometimes.... for the one who has to work shifts... i'm ok as i can see you wanna come de... for the one who keeps escaping.... sometimes i really dun understand you.... demoralised... fear???? or you simply dun care? izzit past failures dat caused you to react this way? i tried to be empathetic... but i just cant figure you out and times and times again... giving in to you... took the initiative to give u the stuff and all that.... but you're full of excuses.... =.=
how to help you when the person is not even receptive... going to distances a couple of times..... all the way from east to west... but its rather useless i tink.... haiiii.... goin to classes alone is not sian... but having free riders who dun even care is quite frustrating....
am talkin to trina right nw... nowadays guys are worse off than girls, be it in sense of responsibility or watever.... terrible..... =.= cant stand it.... super demoralised.... haiiii.... one should always keep improving oneself... but its really tiring without support and understanding.... and i cant keep my focus.. tho it is true that a job is just a job and studyin is just a part of life... you cant really live without a job... and you cant really secure one without improving? not that i am havin probs with my work... but then again its hard to focus with so many things on hand.. unless i am really one with no sense of responsibility then maybe i can focus on my studies more? then again if i have no sense of responsibility then i suppose its hard to keep any job? =/
Jie crapped at 11:13 AM
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