Saturday, September 22, 2007
Mouldy
Seems like i've been thinkin abt everything too nicely le i suppose.... i've juz got landed with some shit from other ppl.... not only in work but other things also.... to be truthful... i cant finish MY WORK... and my colic has been helpin with watz suppose to be mine.... well, i'm thankful for dat of coz... but how am i gonna answer if anythg crops up... plus there are other things that ppl messed up and of coz... i have to clear.... which is kinda BlEAH.... coz... ppl do thgs halfway... den they go off... with e thgs messed... and, i gotta clear e mess... got ppl say wan help me ler but bleAHHH... i dunno if tmr will be enuf for me to clear everythg up manz... siGH....
It aint helpful if someone drops me smmr last minute things or wateva... and man i really need such things at dis kinda moment when i'm bogged down with so many darn things to do? i haven been able to concentrate on doin anything recently and can i juz tell u its darn tedious to have to revise a weeks work in juz a mere few hours and its difficult to get much in forcing your way thru straight? when i dun say everything out, it doesnt mean i have nothing to do or have no problems... do i have to spell out everything even tho i aint feelin all dat fine and do i have to say it all out and show everybody when i dun feel like it? ya know its sometimes kinda weird dat ppl hate seeing a black face coz they tink they dun deserve such treatment... yet when u dun show it, they kinda assume everythings good n fine and give u all sorts of crap?
e only entertainment i get nowadays is chattin with my buds juz for mayb e most, an hr aft class... after which i gotta go hm coz i live e furthest...& i'm also e only one takin public transport. i seem to be happy with everything so far but sometimes there's always things that happens that make u tink eitherwise.. the kind that kinda disturbs all the beautiful thinking....
its not a single thg dat made me tink dis way... in case u're wondering... and if anyone is angry with wat i've said, i can say that at dis moment, i cant care abt how u're feelin any more coz i aint feelin really gd abt anythg myself... so there isnt really anythg i can do abt u or for u.
i need some air to breathe... not ppl pushin me down back into e water whenever i'm tryin to come up for a breath of fresh air~!~!~!~!~! i've been caring too much abt other ppl that now i'm strugglin to breathe myself... sometimes i force myself to do things even tho i dun really wish to, or am already very tired... placing priority on others lidat.... sometimes i wonder if its e right thg to do... or mayb i shd try to be more selfish?!?! i dun really know now... but i guess i'll have an answer eventually.......
My Life = 50%Work + 25%studies + 20%other ppl thgs + 5% thgs i wanna do?
i seem like i watch movies alot coz i always say i wanna watch..... in e end... i dun get to watch.... i meet my best fren kinda like half yearly or longer than dat... to catch a movie? seems like i mention alot of good things.... pleasant dining outings with frens or wateva... but there are times dat are unpleasant that u dunch know... i dun see a need to advertise on the thgs i dun feel pleasant abt.. neither do i wan to be reminded abt them.... but sometimes its dat shitty dat when things happen u remember all.... well, i've had a not so nice evenin before i left work and it made my whole nite suck.... my mood only lighten when i dun hafta tink abt anythg durin our dinner aft class... its not like i like to stay out late but its e only time when i feel relaxed... if u dun get it... theres nothing i can do also. i am very tired but its juz dat i dun show it... i tried but u didnt see it... can u say i din? dis is goin nowhere as there are endless strings of thots goin thru my mind right now... i guess i am juz feelin down abt everythg dat is happenin rite now and nothing can appease me now... i am juz not in e mood for anythg anymore.....
Jie crapped at 12:15 AM
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